There is no future bigger than the power of now.

I have been restless.

 When I was slugging it out in the operating rooms, knee deep in sick patients and surgeries that lasted entire days, I dreamed of the life I currently have. In those days, I would get to work before the sun rose and leave the hospital after it set. My days were fluorescent hospital lights wrapped in darkness. I missed out on countless events and gatherings, and my body bore the strain of standing hunched over another body all day long. Now I wake up with the sun and go to bed before it rests. I have coffee with friends and business partners during the day, go to yoga whenever I want, and paint when I am inspired. The amount of freedom I have is SUCH a blessing. My body, mind, and soul love it. So why am I so anxious?

 On my walk last night it hit me. I have been creating unnecessary mind drama, perseverating over how I’m not where I want to be, only to miss the fact that I am currently in what used to be only a dream. In my need to run toward something “out there”, I am missing what is right here, in this moment, which at one point seemed an impossible attainment. It is an old habit of mine, to focus on some “goal” and get angry about how I haven’t achieved it yet. But the reality is, if we are always focused on the “out there” we never really appreciate the present moment and all of the beauty it contains. There IS no moment bigger than the one we are currently in, because there is NO OTHER moment than the one we are currently in. The power is not out there, in the future, the power is now. Even if now is quiet and small, like a mouse. ESPECIALLY if now is quiet and small.

 So, relax. I am saying this as much to myself as I am to you. Relax and know that you are right where you are supposed to be. Even the smallest of moments, like the smallest of creatures, hold their own unique and magnificent power.